So, I’m in the midst of the six weeks’ holiday (I know, I know, us teachers have it easy, huh?) and I’m at that point where I miss writing. It happens every year and I don’t know whether it’s boredom, a hole that needs to be filled because I miss writing, or whether I’m doubting my career and I want to do something to feel as if I’m doing something different.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I love, love, love teaching and I never realise how much until I talk to people and gush about my job. However, it’s such a draining and exhausting job because we’re always made to feel like we’re not good enough.
I went to the dentist yesterday and she told me that my teeth are a bit worn at the front and it’s most likely down to stress: I’ve been clenching and grinding my teeth in my sleep. I laughed and said ‘Yep, that sounds about right!’ Because it is stressful and I thrive for the challenge and revel in the intensity of it all… but when I’m not there, I start to believe that I’m not capable of doing the job well. I believe it’s something called ‘Imposter Syndrome’ or something similar; when you can’t believe that you’re doing the job that you’re doing. Does that make sense?
Anyway, the reason for this post is, essentially, a ‘Hi! I’m back!’ post. However, I know that my job will take over at some point when I’m back into the swing of things and I won’t have time to blog. I get that ‘Shouldn’t you be working?’ feeling when I write for myself during term time.
So, anyway, again, I’ve missed the comments from you lovely people and I’ve missed seeing what you guys are up to. You’ll probably see me pop up every now and again but then I’ll probably return in a year’s time when I’m feeling exactly how I am feeling now.
I’ve even had a play around with my blog layout… although, I’m still not convinced I like it. Any suggestions would be very much appreciated. I’ve added links to try and compartmentalise my blogging – I’m not a niche kind of person (oh, how I wish I was!!) so I’ll blog about all sorts.
Love you all!!